Rick Harrison remains to be grieving his son Adam’s demise one yr later.
In a brand new episode of “In Depth With Graham Bensinger,” the “Pawn Stars” lead, 59, spoke about his son who died of a drug overdose on the age of 39 in January 2024, and stated he hasn’t stopped fascinated with the “what if” eventualities of the tragedy.
“I take into consideration him day by day,” stated Harrison. “In his 20s, he had drug issues. I imply, God, I put him in rehab so many occasions and each time he’d be doing nice, after which he would simply fall again.”
Harrison, who shared Adam together with his first spouse, Kim, defined that Adam’s habit “bought actually, actually unhealthy” main as much as his deadly fentanyl overdose.
“The factor is, while you lose a child, you second guess f—ing every thing,” the Historical past Channel star shared.
“It’s like, ‘Might I’ve carried out this? Might I’ve carried out this? Might I’ve carried out this? Might I’ve carried out this?’ And it’s prefer it goes via your mind always. There’s not a day I don’t [think] about him.”
“I imply, I feel I did every thing proper,” Harrison continued. “You simply sit in your head, ‘What if I did this? What if I did this?’ You recognize what I imply? What if I simply grabbed him, f—ing locked him behind my truck, drove him to Oregon and put him over to the place he couldn’t get [drugs]?”
He added, “I imply, you’ve 100 issues undergo your thoughts. There’s nothing worse than shedding a child.”
Harrison additionally recalled the time that Adam broke into his home.
“I figured possibly if we put him in jail for 2 months it’ll clear him out, however he simply went straight again on it,” Harrison stated. “You attempt to give him robust love however, God, you simply by no means see the OD coming. You wish to give them robust love and every thing however I by no means thought that may occur.”
“It’s exhausting,” Harrison admitted, including, “There’s no instruction ebook with youngsters. They’re all totally different fashions.”
Within the wake of Adam’s demise, Harrison stated that he’s realized to “recognize what you bought,” which for him consists of his two different sons, Jake and Corey, and his 4 grandchildren.
“I spend as a lot time with my youngsters as I can. I speak to all my youngsters on the telephone virtually day by day. I really like my youngsters, love my grandkids,” he shared. “You get pleasure from life. I imply, I actually know guys that’ve bought 10 occasions as a lot cash as me, and I do all proper, which might be depressing.”
Harrison continued, “It’s straightforward to get pleasure from life. It truly is. Simply don’t be across the folks which might be depressing and simply get pleasure from life with your loved ones and your pals and every thing. It’s not that tough to be glad.”
The fact star confirmed his son’s demise from fentanyl overdose in Las Vegas final yr in a press release to The Publish.
“Sure, I can affirm Adam died from a fentanyl overdose,” Harrison stated on the time. “The fentanyl disaster on this nation have to be taken extra significantly,” he added. “It appears it’s simply flowing over the borders and nothing is being carried out about it. We should do higher.”
Harrison later broke his silence on Adam’s demise through Instagram with a photograph of himself smiling alongside his son in a bar.
“You’ll all the time be in my coronary heart!” Harrison wrote. “I really like you, Adam.”
