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It’s been 15 years since Amy Winehouse was discovered lifeless in her London house.
On the time, many blamed her ex-husband, Blake Fielder-Civil, for the descent into dependancy that finally claimed her life.
Now, Fielder-Civil is talking out for the primary time about his position in Amy’s ultimate days.
In an interview on the “We Must Speak” podcast, Blake denied any wrongdoing, insisting that “Amy had company” proper as much as the very finish of her life.
“My stance now could be that I do know lots of people, particularly folks studying media 20 years in the past, would have an concept that Amy’s passing is my accountability,” he mentioned.
“As I’ve at all times mentioned, I by no means shirk from any accountability. If I’ve finished one thing, I’ll put my hand as much as it.”
Blake recalled assembly Amy at a pub in London in 2001, and he remembered believing that she was a “lovely lady.”
Whereas they descended into extra severe substance abuse collectively, Blake maintains that he didn’t lead Amy down that path.
“Amy herself had company. And that’s under no circumstances in any respect disrespecting her by saying that, however Amy did what she wished to do,” he mentioned.
“And regardless that the consuming had began to harm her, she carried on… She’s really a really robust lady.”
To the top, he says, he regarded Amy as his greatest pal.
“These are reminiscences that are exhausting for me to revisit. It’s exhausting for me, ‘trigger she’s not right here nonetheless. That was my greatest mate, and we had been joyful. And the medicine was a facet of it, finally,” he mentioned.
“[But] our love had nothing to do with dependancy. And dependancy had nothing to do with our love. That’s the place it went. It wasn’t who we had been.”
Fielder-Civil admitted to giving Winehouse heroin for the primary time, however he says they had been each equally complicit in each other’s substance abuse.
He notes that Amy’s dependancy was really at its worst whereas he was briefly imprisoned for a bar combat.
“I by no means blamed an individual that gave me medicine for the primary time. I’ve by no means tried to place that on anybody. Why would I?” he mentioned.
“I by no means understood, do these folks suppose that I pressured Amy to do medicine? That’s simply not what occurred… I’m not shirking accountability, however this concept of day by day facilitating, no. I wasn’t the seller.”
Winehouse and Fielder-Civil divorced in 2009, however they remained shut till her loss of life, talking often throughout his incarceration.
Blake was in jail when Amy handed away from alcohol poisoning, however he insists that he “would’ve by no means in one million years have let her simply sit and get drunk all day.”
He was unable to attend her funeral attributable to his imprisonment.
